Anyway here is Day 45's picture
The donut of misery says, 16% done!!! Still a long long way to go, but hey at least we are in the double digits of what is done. I like that.
As for the donut of misery....I sometimes question why it is called that. I mean I know deployments aren't fun. I know they aren't easy. But isn't it like rubbing salt in someone's wounds to call it misery. I mean you and I both know, this isn't a picnic. I just don't need to be reminded of that constantly.
People ask some really odd questions when they find out you are the spouse of a service member, they get even weirder when they discover he/she is deployed. I sometimes wonder if people have a brain at all.
Some questions I have gotten are....
Don't you miss him - really this is a no brainer...of course I do...I don't need you to remind me
How do you do it - how anyone else does it. I love my husband so I do what I need to do..
So I am guessing you don't support the war - Really why does that matter. My husband does his job....it doesn't matter if I support the war or not. Its not like I can call up the president and be like "um yeah could you send my husband home." dumb.
Are you afraid he won't come home - please please please never ask a significant other of a deployed Marine or solider this... it is the stupidest question ever. Of course I am scared. I cry sometimes thinking about it... but honestly that is not something I can think about...I need to be positive...and stupid questions like that...don't help
I honestly think that someone people just say things without first realizing the effect it could have.
I wonder if people even know what it is like to not sleep because the nightmares cause you to wake up bawling each night.
I wonder if people know that avoiding the news channels is something you try desperately to do...but you can't, like it is an addiction.
I wonder if people who cry because they miss their spouse who has been gone for a week or 2, know that military wives handle so much more, and have no concrete details as to when they will be back.
I guess I just wonder sometimes.
Anyway this post went a little off track... but those are my thoughts today.
I hope everyone is having a good friday. I am going to get back on track with posting each day.
JMS - I love you. Stay safe my heart.