Tuesday, May 31, 2011

And so it begins...

And so the deployment begins. We now start the waiting for homecoming plan.

Is it sad that I already started planning homecoming. He hasn't even been gone 24 hours and I am already thinking about homecoming. I am thinking about what I will wear, what Miss A will wear, what the homecoming signs will say, everything. Yeah it may be a bit early but honestly each day is one day closer to him so I will do what I need to do.

The thing I don't like about deployments is how easily I cry over them. I can not even begin to tell you the feeling when I was in the airport just standing there hugging him knowing that I will not hug him again for a while. It was no good. I cried. People looked at us. I get that it drew attention. I understand this. But I still wish people had been respectful enough to look away. They had to know it was a hard moment for us both. The tears in his eyes almost killed me. Walking away was the hardest thing I have ever done. I hate saying goodbye. I'd rather say.. see you soon. So thats what I think I will do.

JMS - I love you. I am proud of you. You are so incredibly amazing and I can not wait for the day I can hug you again. See you soon my love!!


Monday, May 30, 2011

I wonder...

There are a lot of things I wonder about.. A lot that I always think why would someone say or do that. So because I don't have answers I write them down.

I wonder...

I wonder why when people find out I am pregnant they question it. Do you really think I would tell you I was pregnant and lie about that? We have tried for 4 years and would certainly not lie about that. I know I am not showing really but I promise 3 ultrasounds and numerous doctors appointment have confirmed the presence of our child. Not that it is anyone else's business.

I wonder why people at the airport try to bring their whole wardrobe in their carry on bag. The bag clearly does not fit in the overhead compartment. I know it costs to check a bag now but honestly either pay the cost or don't bring as much stuff.

I wonder why my dog feels the need to act like a perfect angel for anyone other than Jack or I. Apparently we are the only ones that he feels the need to act up for. Thanks Bentley. Hopefully he is enjoying his summer vacation in Buffalo.

I wonder why baby stuff is so addictting. Jack and I can't stop buying stuff for our little dancer. We have a lot more to get for her but we are having a ton of fun buying the things we need.

I wonder why some people try to live outside of their means. Its not my place to judge what people spend their money. But please dont complain that you have no money to pay bills and in the next breath tell me about the places you go out to eat and the expensive things you buy. If you can't afford bills its time to cut spending. The first thing that can be cut is internet and cable. You don't need those things.

I guess I just wonder why some things happen the way that they do. I am sure I will never know the answer but it won't stop me from wondering.

JMS - stay safe my love. We will be here waiting for you.



Today is Memorial Day. It is a day that many will have the day off of work and will spend time with family and friends. It is a day that few will remember what it is really for but most inside the military community know far to well what this day is for and will spend some time in silence reflecting on that.

I appreciate that the nation has days set out to remember those who fought and died for us. I believe that people should remember everyday. I think that each day we should be grateful for those that have given their lives so that we might be free. I also believe we need to remember those that although may not have given their lives have given so much of themselves. We know far to many men and women who will not be the same after fighting for our freedom. We know far to many men and women who still deal with the nightmares, the social discomfort and the images that they can not forget. Those men and women should be remembered and honored to.

And while we are on the topic of remembering and honoring we should be remembering and honoring those that are left behind. We need to remember the widows, the mothers, the children. We need to be thankful for our lives we are able to live while others are dealing with love storys cut short.

I for one am thankful for all that others have done. I am thankful that my husband is brave enough to fight for what he believes in. He fights for those he doesn't know, imagine what he would do for me. I am thankful that my husband and I have had 4 amazingly happy years together and have survived deployment. Deployment #2 starts for us very very soon. I am ready for it and am glad that my husband is brave enough to do what needs to be done. Am I sad that my husband will miss the birth of our first child? Yes. But I know that the reason he will miss it is far better than what he or I could imagine. He is doing what needs to be done so that our little girl can live a life of freedom. For that I am okay with him missing a few things. To us a calendar is a suggestion. We will celebrate holidays and birthdays on our own time. We will be like many other military families and will wait for the time we are together again. We will dream of one another and plan for the day we will see each other again.

So today as you are celebrating with family and friends take some time to remember the men and women who have made that possible. Take some time to remember the families who are missing their loved ones because of their bravery.

Remember we live in the Land of the Free... Because of the Brave.

JMS- I am proud to be married to a hero. Aubrey is proud to have a father that will do what needs to be done. We love you more than anything. Stay Safe my heart. We will be here waiting for you.


Amanda and Baby A

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Baby S is a....

So we found out what Baby S is.....

It's a


Yep! We are having a baby girl. Jack and I were so excited to see her on the ultrasound and hear her heartbeat. And of course we went out and bought her a pink little outfit.

We asked her godparents officially to be her godparents and were so touched at how excepting they were and ready they are to be there for our little girl.

Miss Aubrey will be here in October!!! Her Daddy and I couldn't be more excited.

JMS- Ilu and Miss A does too!!!

Amanda and baby Aubrey.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

10 on Sunday

I know it doesn't rhyme. I am okay with that. haha.
I am going to do an update list style. So there.

1. The perinatalogist went great. Baby S is measuring about a week ahead. But everything looks wonderful. We will have to have a few special looks at his or her heart, but we are okay with that.

2. Jack and I finalized names. Which we are excited about. We are keeping the final names secret for a little longer though. Close family knows for now.

3. We found a new apartment. Its beautiful. And super close to my work and only 10 minutes for Jack. Its perfect.

4. The people at Publix are awesome. Apparently Baby S is stealing all my energy because I almost passed out there yesterday. I am talking dizzy and black out. Thankfully the guy at Publix got a chair and Jack was able to get me to drink some Mt Dew to get my sugar levels up. Scary but all is good.

5.I fly out to start my new job tomorrow!!! So excited.

6. Speaking of flying, my amazing husband bought me an awesome luggage set. He rocks.

7. We figured out Bentley's travel plans for Buffalo. whew! What a relief. Bentley is going on vacation with my mom and dad for a bit. And I must say they sound a bit excited about it. haha Oh and thank you to my mom's friend Mary and her family for taking Bentley as one of their carry ons. We definitely appreciate it.

8. Bentley needs a muzzle to get his nails clipped, or as some call it a party hat. Its slightly embarassing but funny none the less.

9. Deployment #2 will be starting for us sooner than we think. Yuck but we got this.

10. We have awesome friends. Thats all I can say about that.

Hope everyone has a great week!!

JMS -ilu Happy 4 year Anniversary!!!!

Amanda and little Baby S