Tuesday, May 31, 2011

And so it begins...

And so the deployment begins. We now start the waiting for homecoming plan.

Is it sad that I already started planning homecoming. He hasn't even been gone 24 hours and I am already thinking about homecoming. I am thinking about what I will wear, what Miss A will wear, what the homecoming signs will say, everything. Yeah it may be a bit early but honestly each day is one day closer to him so I will do what I need to do.

The thing I don't like about deployments is how easily I cry over them. I can not even begin to tell you the feeling when I was in the airport just standing there hugging him knowing that I will not hug him again for a while. It was no good. I cried. People looked at us. I get that it drew attention. I understand this. But I still wish people had been respectful enough to look away. They had to know it was a hard moment for us both. The tears in his eyes almost killed me. Walking away was the hardest thing I have ever done. I hate saying goodbye. I'd rather say.. see you soon. So thats what I think I will do.

JMS - I love you. I am proud of you. You are so incredibly amazing and I can not wait for the day I can hug you again. See you soon my love!!


1 comment:

Katherine Lynn said...

deployments aren't easy but this is your second one. Not that it makes it easier. Not that its not worse than last time. Being pregnant is hard enough but it is even harder doing it by yourself. Trust me I know. I love you Sutter family and I am so happy Aubrey has such great parents. I wish I could be there for you but if you ever feel like calling for whatever reason at any time of day I hope you wont hesitate to pick up the phone. Remember im 6 hours behind anyway. When is he due back?